Dear Internet,
I'm excited for PROM!! It should be really fun. In general I'm excited for this new stage of life - done with high school, looking forward to summer and college.
I can't wait to go camping.
I can't wait to have unlimited (or as close as it gets) time.
I am pumpedddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
Thank you for reading.
I feel so independent. And grown up. And ready to let go and dive into the deep unknown. Where is that line from? I can't remember. I looked it up on google. Nothing helpful.
Time for bed.
Friday, April 29, 2011
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
WASAP MAH N-WORDS
Haven't blogged in a while. I don't feel like writing much.
I have been hating on everything for the past month, but a few days ago a bunch of people commented on it and I thought maybe I should just try to tolerate everything for a few days and see how that goes. And guess what! It's way better. When I don't have an opinion set against something already, I often enjoy it much more than I would've.
I love new beginnings. I turn over new leaves kind of often but it makes me feel like anything is achievable if only I start over and try again and try harder and keep going, you know? And leaving the old leaf behind with all its regrets and failures is nice, too - though I keep it in mind so I don't do them all over again. I think I'm starting a new leaf currently, with college and growing up and errithang. It's exciting.
Soon the AP exams will be upon us. I don't think I'm ready, but oh fucking well. :) Life is good; I'm enjoying it; AP exams don't matter.
LOVE LOVE LOVE
Vally
I have been hating on everything for the past month, but a few days ago a bunch of people commented on it and I thought maybe I should just try to tolerate everything for a few days and see how that goes. And guess what! It's way better. When I don't have an opinion set against something already, I often enjoy it much more than I would've.
I love new beginnings. I turn over new leaves kind of often but it makes me feel like anything is achievable if only I start over and try again and try harder and keep going, you know? And leaving the old leaf behind with all its regrets and failures is nice, too - though I keep it in mind so I don't do them all over again. I think I'm starting a new leaf currently, with college and growing up and errithang. It's exciting.
Soon the AP exams will be upon us. I don't think I'm ready, but oh fucking well. :) Life is good; I'm enjoying it; AP exams don't matter.
LOVE LOVE LOVE
Vally
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Bittersweet
Today was senior ditch day and 4-20. That was nice. Except I don't smoke, and I didn't ditch. So all my classes were super easy and fun (except math, in which I didn't do well on a quiz) and it was like ditching, only I was at school.
Crapola I don't feel prepared for the AP Calc BC exam.
A couple of my friends don't have prom dates and I'm really feeling empathy.. Not having a date to senior prom when literally all your friends do (you know, except for the other two) would feel SOO BAD. I.. Jeez. How shallow, that we base some of our self-worth off of our relationships with others, but still! Being human is about relationships with others. SO it matters.
I'm tired. Good night :)
Crapola I don't feel prepared for the AP Calc BC exam.
A couple of my friends don't have prom dates and I'm really feeling empathy.. Not having a date to senior prom when literally all your friends do (you know, except for the other two) would feel SOO BAD. I.. Jeez. How shallow, that we base some of our self-worth off of our relationships with others, but still! Being human is about relationships with others. SO it matters.
I'm tired. Good night :)
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Donee
Tomorrow's 4-20! Time to smoke a fatty bowl! Just kidding.
Not the biggest fan of marijuana, not going to lie. It's just not exciting. It only serves as a drain of fun for me. So no thank you. But have fun everyone who is going to get super highh.
Today was cool. Nothing of interest happened. Nothing out of the ordinary.
I can't wait for summer - today Caty and I hung out for a while and it was just so nice, sitting around, not thinking about our responsibilities for a couple of hours... It was great. And this summer I don't think I'm going to have a job so basically that means I will hang out with all my loves 24-7!!!!! Time to partay. Wholesome, though.
I'm planning my graduation party. Should be fun.
Life is good in the hood, except for my AP tests coming up that I'm totally not ready for. Should be good. Awesome sauce. I can't wait for prom. I can't wait for summer. I need to get out of Fairview.
Not the biggest fan of marijuana, not going to lie. It's just not exciting. It only serves as a drain of fun for me. So no thank you. But have fun everyone who is going to get super highh.
Today was cool. Nothing of interest happened. Nothing out of the ordinary.
I can't wait for summer - today Caty and I hung out for a while and it was just so nice, sitting around, not thinking about our responsibilities for a couple of hours... It was great. And this summer I don't think I'm going to have a job so basically that means I will hang out with all my loves 24-7!!!!! Time to partay. Wholesome, though.
I'm planning my graduation party. Should be fun.
Life is good in the hood, except for my AP tests coming up that I'm totally not ready for. Should be good. Awesome sauce. I can't wait for prom. I can't wait for summer. I need to get out of Fairview.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Stick-shift!
I really want a stick shift car. I realize that it's just materialistic and I'm always wanting new things, but I still want it. The reason is it seems it would require more focus - thereby both making it fun and helping to keep the driver concentrated on the road and avoiding crashes. Also stick shift cars are cheaper. Also basically everyone I know drives stick and I want to fit in.
That was only half a joke.
So on Saturday I woke up way earlier than I wanted to so I could go to Saturday School. That was SUPER FUN - except for being not fun at all. The first three hours were super productive, but then I just ran out of cranial power. Ashley was super impressive and kept working and I felt jealous, but when I read more questions it just sounded like gibberish and I could not conceptualize what anything meant anymore. SOOOO now I know I should get enough sleep before the test and I for sure need to review math. Fucking a. After that I went home and wrote a bunch of paragraphs about why I rock (I mean, classier than that, but I feel that's a lot of what applying for things is) for this scholarship, then went to Pearl street and walked around for a while. I visited Mel at the Ritz, which was fun (I found this super awesome flower hair clip that was way too big to be tasteful but looked good, but it cost $18 which was ungodly). After that, I drove to Denver to hang with my little brother Daniel and saw my dad and step-mom. In the night I hung out with Tyler and Emily and Caty and some other cool cats, which was nice but we stayed up super late which made it really hard to get up this morning.
Today I went to Russian and realized that it's all well and good that I go to Russian school and I'm sure it's made a big difference in my literacy, but I will not be excellent until I live in Russia for a while. I need to figure out how to incorporate Russia into my life. Maybe study abroad?
After Russian I went to three different dry-cleaning places that were all closed. Which sucked. Finally I just saw one on the way home after I was basically giving up and dropped off some stuff there. I have never dry cleaned anything before.. I wonder what the technology looks like? When I got home I did some physics (which, as I'm sure you can imagine, was thrilling). I don't really care, though, because at this point I don't value Fairview's anything except the academic environment, which is super easy to excell in if you want to. I'm done pretending I love all the people, I'm done being unnecessarily nice. If you're not sure if I like you, a good way to double-check is to ask yourself these questions:
1) When I walk up to her, does Vally seem invested in our conversation? Or does she answer with one word and leave quickly?
2) When I talk to her, does Vally smile?
3) When I walk up to a group, do I see Vally walk away?
Because the truth is, I'm not downright mean to anyone (at least I don't think I am). If I don't like someone, I just don't waste time interacting with them. I'd rather be alone than be with a group of people I like and someone I really don't appreciate.
Christ! I am suuuuper self-involved. At least it must seem this way in this blog. But the truth is I care a lot about my friends. It's just this blog is for me. Sooo I guess it makes sense that it's self involved.
I went to Denver again to hang with Dima's parents (my grandparents) and Kirill and I tried to go swimming but the water was wayy too cold for me. We ate dinner and came home.
I have basically been falling asleep all day, and I think it's time to actually do that.
Self help may seem dumb, but it's actually a great way to maintain a positive outlook and look back and realize accomplishment. I read this huge thing for CU today about how to succeed in the engineering department, and it was super helpful. Okay now I'm going to bed.
That was only half a joke.
So on Saturday I woke up way earlier than I wanted to so I could go to Saturday School. That was SUPER FUN - except for being not fun at all. The first three hours were super productive, but then I just ran out of cranial power. Ashley was super impressive and kept working and I felt jealous, but when I read more questions it just sounded like gibberish and I could not conceptualize what anything meant anymore. SOOOO now I know I should get enough sleep before the test and I for sure need to review math. Fucking a. After that I went home and wrote a bunch of paragraphs about why I rock (I mean, classier than that, but I feel that's a lot of what applying for things is) for this scholarship, then went to Pearl street and walked around for a while. I visited Mel at the Ritz, which was fun (I found this super awesome flower hair clip that was way too big to be tasteful but looked good, but it cost $18 which was ungodly). After that, I drove to Denver to hang with my little brother Daniel and saw my dad and step-mom. In the night I hung out with Tyler and Emily and Caty and some other cool cats, which was nice but we stayed up super late which made it really hard to get up this morning.
Today I went to Russian and realized that it's all well and good that I go to Russian school and I'm sure it's made a big difference in my literacy, but I will not be excellent until I live in Russia for a while. I need to figure out how to incorporate Russia into my life. Maybe study abroad?
After Russian I went to three different dry-cleaning places that were all closed. Which sucked. Finally I just saw one on the way home after I was basically giving up and dropped off some stuff there. I have never dry cleaned anything before.. I wonder what the technology looks like? When I got home I did some physics (which, as I'm sure you can imagine, was thrilling). I don't really care, though, because at this point I don't value Fairview's anything except the academic environment, which is super easy to excell in if you want to. I'm done pretending I love all the people, I'm done being unnecessarily nice. If you're not sure if I like you, a good way to double-check is to ask yourself these questions:
1) When I walk up to her, does Vally seem invested in our conversation? Or does she answer with one word and leave quickly?
2) When I talk to her, does Vally smile?
3) When I walk up to a group, do I see Vally walk away?
Because the truth is, I'm not downright mean to anyone (at least I don't think I am). If I don't like someone, I just don't waste time interacting with them. I'd rather be alone than be with a group of people I like and someone I really don't appreciate.
Christ! I am suuuuper self-involved. At least it must seem this way in this blog. But the truth is I care a lot about my friends. It's just this blog is for me. Sooo I guess it makes sense that it's self involved.
I went to Denver again to hang with Dima's parents (my grandparents) and Kirill and I tried to go swimming but the water was wayy too cold for me. We ate dinner and came home.
I have basically been falling asleep all day, and I think it's time to actually do that.
Self help may seem dumb, but it's actually a great way to maintain a positive outlook and look back and realize accomplishment. I read this huge thing for CU today about how to succeed in the engineering department, and it was super helpful. Okay now I'm going to bed.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Honor
Since the last time I posted, I feel a lot has happened. Monday I went to Washington DC, spent the day eating and lounging around the condo with my BYBA girlies. Tuesday we went lobbying and met with several legislative assistants and took a picture with Perlmutter. Talia, Gaelyn, and I spoke at the congressional briefing. It was awesome. Wednesday we hung out, ate, and went back home. Thursday morning I missed Chinese to go get this award for being an outstanding youth leader, which was awesome and I felt super honored, then I went to Chinese with Mark, Ryan, Ashley, and Slick. After hanging out, I went to ten minutes of Digital Art and Design 2, only to leave to go give a BYBA presentation to Manhattan Middle School 8th graders.
After all of that, I went to work out and suddenly was in a super angry venty mood and just yelled at 24 hour fitness, venting to Mel for like an hour. I apologized at the end for being so whiny, but she was totally nice about it. God, even just remembering it makes me angry. I whined about prom, my parents (I love them but sometimes they accidentally shrink my clothes), my love life, my academic life, my singing, and who knows what else? It felt neverending. But we figured out that we live crazy close, which was cool.
After that I went home, did a bunch of physics, then went to Ryan's for a The Office party. The episode this week was so good! Also Parks and Rec was hilarious.
Today was Friday, Friday, and you'd better believe I got down. I have SO MUCH WORK to catch up on. But it's okay because I'm on it. For LA it's not too bad, just annotating poems and do this timed writing, Chinese is a joke (I love it but there's no work), in math we didn't do anything concrete really, and mostly it's just physics I'm worried about. I have to make up this really long test. But that's next Thursday and I have a ton of time and it'll be fine. It's just that a ton of people have told me it's long and hard like a cock.
During Journalism today, I got asked to prom! It was super unexpected because I thought Stan was going to ask Emily, but then he asked me! It's funny because I guess all my friends already knew, but didn't tell me so it'd be a surprise. I love surprises.
PLAY BY PLAY
I walk into the Jlab, say hi to people, ask Stan if he got a new haircut, he says yes, I say it looks good, we all sit down to listen to Eli (who has really become a leader! jeez, it's kind of impressive how much he's changed, just between being a section editor to being editor in chief), and Stan yells wait! And tries to say something in Russian while walking towards me with flowers. What he said was mostly incomprehensible, but I figured - what else could he be asking me? So that was cool.
In Digital Art and Design 2 we're watching Ironman 2. It's so cool and also it's funny because there's this 'Russian' villain who can't speak Russian or even pretend for shit. I just laugh at his attempts. Also they portray Moscow winters as summer compared to what they are in real life. The guy was wearing like a tank top and a jacket unzipped. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but even badasses bundle up - way up - for winter in Russia.
After school I hung out with Mark and Rick and Ryan and Ashley and a bunch of others came later. It was pretty fun but eventually I was tired and wasn't feeling it anymore so I went home.
AHHH I'm so tired and this blog has drained the last of my energy. Good night and good luck.
After all of that, I went to work out and suddenly was in a super angry venty mood and just yelled at 24 hour fitness, venting to Mel for like an hour. I apologized at the end for being so whiny, but she was totally nice about it. God, even just remembering it makes me angry. I whined about prom, my parents (I love them but sometimes they accidentally shrink my clothes), my love life, my academic life, my singing, and who knows what else? It felt neverending. But we figured out that we live crazy close, which was cool.
After that I went home, did a bunch of physics, then went to Ryan's for a The Office party. The episode this week was so good! Also Parks and Rec was hilarious.
Today was Friday, Friday, and you'd better believe I got down. I have SO MUCH WORK to catch up on. But it's okay because I'm on it. For LA it's not too bad, just annotating poems and do this timed writing, Chinese is a joke (I love it but there's no work), in math we didn't do anything concrete really, and mostly it's just physics I'm worried about. I have to make up this really long test. But that's next Thursday and I have a ton of time and it'll be fine. It's just that a ton of people have told me it's long and hard like a cock.
During Journalism today, I got asked to prom! It was super unexpected because I thought Stan was going to ask Emily, but then he asked me! It's funny because I guess all my friends already knew, but didn't tell me so it'd be a surprise. I love surprises.
PLAY BY PLAY
I walk into the Jlab, say hi to people, ask Stan if he got a new haircut, he says yes, I say it looks good, we all sit down to listen to Eli (who has really become a leader! jeez, it's kind of impressive how much he's changed, just between being a section editor to being editor in chief), and Stan yells wait! And tries to say something in Russian while walking towards me with flowers. What he said was mostly incomprehensible, but I figured - what else could he be asking me? So that was cool.
In Digital Art and Design 2 we're watching Ironman 2. It's so cool and also it's funny because there's this 'Russian' villain who can't speak Russian or even pretend for shit. I just laugh at his attempts. Also they portray Moscow winters as summer compared to what they are in real life. The guy was wearing like a tank top and a jacket unzipped. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but even badasses bundle up - way up - for winter in Russia.
After school I hung out with Mark and Rick and Ryan and Ashley and a bunch of others came later. It was pretty fun but eventually I was tired and wasn't feeling it anymore so I went home.
AHHH I'm so tired and this blog has drained the last of my energy. Good night and good luck.
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Cambell's soup is gross
Today I went to Russian and was in a really bad mood because my partner that I go with didn't finish our homework.. Then I hung out at my house until it was time to console Kirill because he was nervous for the concert, then I went to pick up my reliable friends and went to the concert, where I sang very mediocre-ly and my family and friends told me I did well (probably out of pity).
We had dinner at Carraba's and it was really good and I was in a really good mood and my mom and I just had a really meaningful, long conversation, and in a few hours I"m headed off to Washington DC for two days.
Cool beans.
We had dinner at Carraba's and it was really good and I was in a really good mood and my mom and I just had a really meaningful, long conversation, and in a few hours I"m headed off to Washington DC for two days.
Cool beans.
Poopoopoo
I try to be nice, but the truth is I think a lot of people suck and I'd rather not be sugary sweet to someone else than lie to myself and be little miss perfect to everyone. Some people just don't deserve my good side. I'm not saying they shouldn't live great lives and achieve great things and shit, I just don't want any part of it because there are some people that I just really don't like. Tolerating them is very difficult. So I spend time with people I enjoy. Yay.
Today I wrote my blog for yesterday and went to White House Black Market, where I found a dress to wear to the concert later today (because it's after 12 AM, hah) and found out that the manager will hire me, she just doesn't know if she can hire under 18. So in any case, once I turn 18 I have a place I can work. Actually, I can work at two places, but I think I need a change of pace from Le Peep. It was great experience, but right now it just doesn't appeal to me as much as WHBM.
After that, I went to my rehearsal, which went really well, then hung out with Mark, Ryan, and Ashley. We played some ping pong, made a fire, watched some fireworks, then watched Hot Tub Time Machine. That was super funny.
Tomorrow is my concert!! Wait, today. I hope it goes well.
Today I wrote my blog for yesterday and went to White House Black Market, where I found a dress to wear to the concert later today (because it's after 12 AM, hah) and found out that the manager will hire me, she just doesn't know if she can hire under 18. So in any case, once I turn 18 I have a place I can work. Actually, I can work at two places, but I think I need a change of pace from Le Peep. It was great experience, but right now it just doesn't appeal to me as much as WHBM.
After that, I went to my rehearsal, which went really well, then hung out with Mark, Ryan, and Ashley. We played some ping pong, made a fire, watched some fireworks, then watched Hot Tub Time Machine. That was super funny.
Tomorrow is my concert!! Wait, today. I hope it goes well.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Urine soup
Yesterday was friday, friday, gotta get down on friday! I think I'll be thinking of that song every friday for a while. Oh, Rebecca Black. Fame comes in many lights, and I'm afraid yours isn't very bright.
After a pretty good but tiring day at school I drove Caty home, went home and finished watching Front of the Class (a movie about Tourrets syndrome that I saw a bunch of in Costa Rica. I really liked the main actor, and couldn't find the movie here for a long time. But I finally found it and watched the part I didn't have time to finish on vacation). Gaelyn soon picked me up, I drove us to Flatirons to meet Talia and we three had a nice night hanging out.
I've been playing way too much Words With Friends. It's really fun and addicting, but it drains my phone's battery and I could be spending that time on something productive.. But life isn't all about productivity, so fuck that.
It turns out that Monica (my voice teacher) went to White House Black Market on Friday, too, and had a nice conversation with the manager. She basically put in a glowing word for me, about how I'm so excited to work there and told her she should get a cute outfit there because they have great clothes and how I'm just the best in every way and all that, and Lori (the manager) said she loved me or whatever but she's waiting for me to turn 18. So though they haven't called me yet, I figure I have a good chance of working there once I'm 18. Which will only be in about three months! How exciting! I can go to CU and work and have nice clothes all at the same time!
Speaking of CU, today I got a letter saying my housing application was confirmed and in late May I should get another correspondence letting me know which dorm I'm staying in, the room number, my roommate's name (if applicable), my address, and other information about moving in and shit. So I'm excited about that.
I can't wait to go camping! Whenever I'm outside at night I look at the sky and it's beautiful, but I always just imagine how much better it would be if I was in the mountains. I cannot wait. I should probably get a tent so I don't have to rely on my camping companions for that. Also I think people might be getting sick of my camping zeal. I hope that doesn't stop them from going camping with me!
I really hope Ashley can come on the trip to Indiana, because it just wouldn't be the same without her.
I love my prom dress.
I love country music.
My concert is tomorrow!! I hope my voice doesn't suck. I wonder what I'll wear.
Q. What's the difference between roast beef and pea soup?
A. Anyone can roast beef.
After a pretty good but tiring day at school I drove Caty home, went home and finished watching Front of the Class (a movie about Tourrets syndrome that I saw a bunch of in Costa Rica. I really liked the main actor, and couldn't find the movie here for a long time. But I finally found it and watched the part I didn't have time to finish on vacation). Gaelyn soon picked me up, I drove us to Flatirons to meet Talia and we three had a nice night hanging out.
I've been playing way too much Words With Friends. It's really fun and addicting, but it drains my phone's battery and I could be spending that time on something productive.. But life isn't all about productivity, so fuck that.
It turns out that Monica (my voice teacher) went to White House Black Market on Friday, too, and had a nice conversation with the manager. She basically put in a glowing word for me, about how I'm so excited to work there and told her she should get a cute outfit there because they have great clothes and how I'm just the best in every way and all that, and Lori (the manager) said she loved me or whatever but she's waiting for me to turn 18. So though they haven't called me yet, I figure I have a good chance of working there once I'm 18. Which will only be in about three months! How exciting! I can go to CU and work and have nice clothes all at the same time!
Speaking of CU, today I got a letter saying my housing application was confirmed and in late May I should get another correspondence letting me know which dorm I'm staying in, the room number, my roommate's name (if applicable), my address, and other information about moving in and shit. So I'm excited about that.
I can't wait to go camping! Whenever I'm outside at night I look at the sky and it's beautiful, but I always just imagine how much better it would be if I was in the mountains. I cannot wait. I should probably get a tent so I don't have to rely on my camping companions for that. Also I think people might be getting sick of my camping zeal. I hope that doesn't stop them from going camping with me!
I really hope Ashley can come on the trip to Indiana, because it just wouldn't be the same without her.
I love my prom dress.
I love country music.
My concert is tomorrow!! I hope my voice doesn't suck. I wonder what I'll wear.
Q. What's the difference between roast beef and pea soup?
A. Anyone can roast beef.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Smile, Big Brother is Watching
Today was so good!! I woke up at 7:04 (usually leave my house at around 7:00) and left at 7:17. I was a bit late to Chinese.. But I don't think anyone noticed. I told Mrs. Gao I was going to CU and would keep coming to her to learn Chinese and she said I could marry her son (because I guess he goes to CU?) and I was like oh that's lovely. And she was like "I'd like you as a daughter-in-law" and I said "Awwww" but it was actually really flattering! I mean, there are several teachers I've had that I actually like a lot and have influenced me a lot and I really WOULD like them to be part of my family. It's just that the way social dynamics work, it would be really weird if I started inviting them over and stuff.. Darn. Maybe after I graduate and give them all my graduation gifts and all that we can have meaningful conversations about how much their teaching has meant to me. Oh my god, I just teared up thinking about it.
Whatapuss. I actually hate that word - pussy - it's so dirty and sounds gross and I don't like it. But oh well.
After school I went to work out, then came home and did virtually nothing. Eventually I did some physics and now I'm going to go to bed.
I want some new shoes. I found really cute heels at Famous Footwear for only $15!! Maybe I'll go back tomorrow and if they're still there I'll know it's a sign that they're meant for me. God, they were great.
Today I offered to do a favor for Ms. Lealman and the favor is turning out to be really big. I have to find out what all the seniors from Knight Crew are doing next year (gap year, college, etc, and what they're studying at college). But actually out of about sixty seniors, I only have 21 left to fill in. So I would say I've done a pretttty good job so far. Damn I'm good.
Whatapuss. I actually hate that word - pussy - it's so dirty and sounds gross and I don't like it. But oh well.
After school I went to work out, then came home and did virtually nothing. Eventually I did some physics and now I'm going to go to bed.
I want some new shoes. I found really cute heels at Famous Footwear for only $15!! Maybe I'll go back tomorrow and if they're still there I'll know it's a sign that they're meant for me. God, they were great.
Today I offered to do a favor for Ms. Lealman and the favor is turning out to be really big. I have to find out what all the seniors from Knight Crew are doing next year (gap year, college, etc, and what they're studying at college). But actually out of about sixty seniors, I only have 21 left to fill in. So I would say I've done a pretttty good job so far. Damn I'm good.
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Going Commando is Freeing
Would taking a girlfriend to prom be weird? Would people think I'm lesbian? Because I'm considering it.
Today I had a pretty successful day. I brought a shit ton of work home, only to not do any. Physics was fun, I watched Ryan and Jordan freestyle and really wanted to but knew that my shitty rap would be 100x worse than theirs... Which, if I think about it, really isn't that bad or surprising, since I'm a white girl who never freestyles. I should've just tried. I think freestyling is so cool.
I went and gave a BYBA presentation over at Shining Mountain Middle with Gaelyn and Robin, which was cool. Then I went to my voice lesson, and then to my job interview. It went really well, I thought. The only thing is that I'm not 18 yet and the woman interviewing me wasn't sure whether or not she could hire me until I am.
I did basically nothing at home after all of that, but on the bright side I feel much more relaxed. I'm super tired. Good night all y'all.
Today I had a pretty successful day. I brought a shit ton of work home, only to not do any. Physics was fun, I watched Ryan and Jordan freestyle and really wanted to but knew that my shitty rap would be 100x worse than theirs... Which, if I think about it, really isn't that bad or surprising, since I'm a white girl who never freestyles. I should've just tried. I think freestyling is so cool.
I went and gave a BYBA presentation over at Shining Mountain Middle with Gaelyn and Robin, which was cool. Then I went to my voice lesson, and then to my job interview. It went really well, I thought. The only thing is that I'm not 18 yet and the woman interviewing me wasn't sure whether or not she could hire me until I am.
I did basically nothing at home after all of that, but on the bright side I feel much more relaxed. I'm super tired. Good night all y'all.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
What if You Could Fly Away?
Today after school Ashley and I were productive and did some math, then I went to BYBA, and interviewed with YOAB for a grant, then went home and was productive and did some work on Beloved and some work for Russian, watched Parenthood, and spent way too long deciding what to wear to my job interview tomorrow. Interviewing with White House Black Market!! I've wanted to work there for months. I hope my outfit isn't too casual - it's just a plain black long-sleeved shirt that's tight and not too low cut, a black pencil skirt with tan horizontal lines on it.. I figure I'll wear pantyhose and black flats and wear my hair half up? Agh, stressing about it won't help, but I really want to work there.
So I won this award for an outstanding youth volunteer and there's a breakfast for it next week.. I guess it's worth missing school for, but I've been missing a lot of school lately. But I actually don't really care about that, I just don't want my grade in math to drop any farther down. That's kind of shallow of me. But I do really like math, I just don't want to be in school anymore.
Poop. Good night and good luck.
So I won this award for an outstanding youth volunteer and there's a breakfast for it next week.. I guess it's worth missing school for, but I've been missing a lot of school lately. But I actually don't really care about that, I just don't want my grade in math to drop any farther down. That's kind of shallow of me. But I do really like math, I just don't want to be in school anymore.
Poop. Good night and good luck.
Monday, April 4, 2011
Colorado - Hell, Yeah it Snows in April!
Today I was soo tired. But I found, once again, more evidence to support my life strategy. In the morning I was just super tired, but then I went to math, where I didn't really get anything and got really frustrated and started tearing up and it sucked a lot because I knew if I cried everyone would look and think 'oh my god look at that weird girl who's crying over math' so I couldn't just let it out and I had to sit there in frustration. This isn't the evidence, though. Right after that, it was lunchtime, and I wasn't feeling it and didn't really want to be with anyone because of math, but at one point I thought:
-Goddamnit! This sucks
-Why don't I just smile and be happy? (at which point I smiled and felt a little better but was enjoying wallowing too much so I stopped)
-I want to keep feeling bad, but feeling bad sucks. So I'm going to stop now. (at which point I smiled again, and felt a gazillion times better!)
So basically the point of this is that happiness (at least for me) is a choice. I felt like feeling bad, so I did, and when I was finished with that, I chose to be happy. And the rest of the day was great, though I was super exhausted for basically no reason.
After school, I went to work out and realized I forgot my workout clothes at home in a bag. So I raced home to get them, fell asleep for twenty minutes, got up and took my clothes to the gym. Which is where I realized I left my sneakers at home (they're normally in my car, so I assumed they were there still but instead made an ass out of u and me). So I worked out anyway in my flats, and Mel laughed at me but let me wear her 8 1/2 size sneakers for a while. My feet are size 6. So that was fun, haha, it's surprising how rarely I noticed my toes wiggling around in the extra inch and a half of space I had.. I'm so dumb sometimes.
I got home and after eating some snacks I read for a while and fell asleep at around 5:30, and all of a sudden I woke up and it was 8:30. Jesus. At least it was a good nap. I started some homework and applied for housing at CU (who knew that would be such a pain in the ass?). And here we are. So I was going to write the page about Beloved and milk and shit, but I think I'd rather go to bed and do that later. Lazy. Poop. Smile.
-Goddamnit! This sucks
-Why don't I just smile and be happy? (at which point I smiled and felt a little better but was enjoying wallowing too much so I stopped)
-I want to keep feeling bad, but feeling bad sucks. So I'm going to stop now. (at which point I smiled again, and felt a gazillion times better!)
So basically the point of this is that happiness (at least for me) is a choice. I felt like feeling bad, so I did, and when I was finished with that, I chose to be happy. And the rest of the day was great, though I was super exhausted for basically no reason.
After school, I went to work out and realized I forgot my workout clothes at home in a bag. So I raced home to get them, fell asleep for twenty minutes, got up and took my clothes to the gym. Which is where I realized I left my sneakers at home (they're normally in my car, so I assumed they were there still but instead made an ass out of u and me). So I worked out anyway in my flats, and Mel laughed at me but let me wear her 8 1/2 size sneakers for a while. My feet are size 6. So that was fun, haha, it's surprising how rarely I noticed my toes wiggling around in the extra inch and a half of space I had.. I'm so dumb sometimes.
I got home and after eating some snacks I read for a while and fell asleep at around 5:30, and all of a sudden I woke up and it was 8:30. Jesus. At least it was a good nap. I started some homework and applied for housing at CU (who knew that would be such a pain in the ass?). And here we are. So I was going to write the page about Beloved and milk and shit, but I think I'd rather go to bed and do that later. Lazy. Poop. Smile.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Double Recap All The Way
I guess I'll recap the past two days.
Friday was a pretty good day, I was glad when it was over. I went to ripple (NIPPLE) and didn't want froyo so while Tyler and Lindsay and Emily and Ian and co. were there I went to King Soopers and bought nail clippers and waterproof mascara. I've been needing those (nailclippers were lost somehow, and I need waterproof mascara for graduation). Then we hung out a bit outside nipple and then Ty drove us all back to fartview. :) Fairview.
I went to work out with my trainer Mel, she's so cool, and I worked out really hard. I'm still pretty sore in my butt and groin. I like working out, except the pain sucks, but I feel really happy while I'm doing it. And refreshed.
I went home to take a shower when Mark was like 'where u at' and I was like 'all up in hurr.' Well, that's not per se what was said but pretty close. So I went to Mark's for an hour to hang out with Ashley and Rick and Mark and watched part of Toy Story 3 when I had to leave to be with Talia. Talia and I had planned to party hardy but were too tired and didn't feel like searching the social jungle out for fun shit. So instead, we ate and bought candy and watched You Again. And went to sleep, some of us earlier than others (fall asleep during the movie).
In the morn' it was Saturday and I went to Russian, then to my performance class, then to White House Black Market (where I scored an interview WHADDAP) where I got my outfit for lobbying in DC. Then I went to pick up Ashley. Poor Ashley, she was in Denver and while she was parallel parking someone hit her, ripped her front bumper off, and drove away. Whaddadick. But she's being a trooper, keeping her chin up and shit. I have been cussing a lot lately, I should change that. Don't want nobody thinking I ain't classy or nothing.
Ashley and I went to the Flatirons Mall to get prom dresses, and got really pretty ones. I got mine from Macy's and Ashley's is from Fusion. Finding hers took a while because we went from store to store and a lot were nice dresses but not THE dress. That's an exaggeration, it's just that at Macy's there wasn't anything great for her, then at Dillard's there was an okay dress but they wouldn't let her put it on hold, but then at Fusion was the number one hit. Also my dress is really pretty.
Thennn Ashley and I came to hang out at my house and started watching She's The Man, which she's heard me talking about a lot before, so she finally got to see where a lot of my crazy spawns. After that, Mark and Zach picked us up and we went to karaoke. That was really fun, I sang Thank You by Dido and Ashley and I sang Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys. It was really nice. Then Ashley and I started watching Bridget Jones' Diary and went to sleep. Partyin Partyin - YEAH - fun, fun, fun!
Friday was a pretty good day, I was glad when it was over. I went to ripple (NIPPLE) and didn't want froyo so while Tyler and Lindsay and Emily and Ian and co. were there I went to King Soopers and bought nail clippers and waterproof mascara. I've been needing those (nailclippers were lost somehow, and I need waterproof mascara for graduation). Then we hung out a bit outside nipple and then Ty drove us all back to fartview. :) Fairview.
I went to work out with my trainer Mel, she's so cool, and I worked out really hard. I'm still pretty sore in my butt and groin. I like working out, except the pain sucks, but I feel really happy while I'm doing it. And refreshed.
I went home to take a shower when Mark was like 'where u at' and I was like 'all up in hurr.' Well, that's not per se what was said but pretty close. So I went to Mark's for an hour to hang out with Ashley and Rick and Mark and watched part of Toy Story 3 when I had to leave to be with Talia. Talia and I had planned to party hardy but were too tired and didn't feel like searching the social jungle out for fun shit. So instead, we ate and bought candy and watched You Again. And went to sleep, some of us earlier than others (fall asleep during the movie).
In the morn' it was Saturday and I went to Russian, then to my performance class, then to White House Black Market (where I scored an interview WHADDAP) where I got my outfit for lobbying in DC. Then I went to pick up Ashley. Poor Ashley, she was in Denver and while she was parallel parking someone hit her, ripped her front bumper off, and drove away. Whaddadick. But she's being a trooper, keeping her chin up and shit. I have been cussing a lot lately, I should change that. Don't want nobody thinking I ain't classy or nothing.
Ashley and I went to the Flatirons Mall to get prom dresses, and got really pretty ones. I got mine from Macy's and Ashley's is from Fusion. Finding hers took a while because we went from store to store and a lot were nice dresses but not THE dress. That's an exaggeration, it's just that at Macy's there wasn't anything great for her, then at Dillard's there was an okay dress but they wouldn't let her put it on hold, but then at Fusion was the number one hit. Also my dress is really pretty.
Thennn Ashley and I came to hang out at my house and started watching She's The Man, which she's heard me talking about a lot before, so she finally got to see where a lot of my crazy spawns. After that, Mark and Zach picked us up and we went to karaoke. That was really fun, I sang Thank You by Dido and Ashley and I sang Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys. It was really nice. Then Ashley and I started watching Bridget Jones' Diary and went to sleep. Partyin Partyin - YEAH - fun, fun, fun!
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