Poopoopoo

I try to be nice, but the truth is I think a lot of people suck and I'd rather not be sugary sweet to someone else than lie to myself and be little miss perfect to everyone. Some people just don't deserve my good side. I'm not saying they shouldn't live great lives and achieve great things and shit, I just don't want any part of it because there are some people that I just really don't like. Tolerating them is very difficult. So I spend time with people I enjoy. Yay.

Today I wrote my blog for yesterday and went to White House Black Market, where I found a dress to wear to the concert later today (because it's after 12 AM, hah) and found out that the manager will hire me, she just doesn't know if she can hire under 18. So in any case, once I turn 18 I have a place I can work. Actually, I can work at two places, but I think I need a change of pace from Le Peep. It was great experience, but right now it just doesn't appeal to me as much as WHBM.

After that, I went to my rehearsal, which went really well, then hung out with Mark, Ryan, and Ashley. We played some ping pong, made a fire, watched some fireworks, then watched Hot Tub Time Machine. That was super funny.

Tomorrow is my concert!! Wait, today. I hope it goes well.

Urine soup

Yesterday was friday, friday, gotta get down on friday! I think I'll be thinking of that song every friday for a while. Oh, Rebecca Black. Fame comes in many lights, and I'm afraid yours isn't very bright.

After a pretty good but tiring day at school I drove Caty home, went home and finished watching Front of the Class (a movie about Tourrets syndrome that I saw a bunch of in Costa Rica. I really liked the main actor, and couldn't find the movie here for a long time. But I finally found it and watched the part I didn't have time to finish on vacation). Gaelyn soon picked me up, I drove us to Flatirons to meet Talia and we three had a nice night hanging out.

I've been playing way too much Words With Friends. It's really fun and addicting, but it drains my phone's battery and I could be spending that time on something productive.. But life isn't all about productivity, so fuck that.

It turns out that Monica (my voice teacher) went to White House Black Market on Friday, too, and had a nice conversation with the manager. She basically put in a glowing word for me, about how I'm so excited to work there and told her she should get a cute outfit there because they have great clothes and how I'm just the best in every way and all that, and Lori (the manager) said she loved me or whatever but she's waiting for me to turn 18. So though they haven't called me yet, I figure I have a good chance of working there once I'm 18. Which will only be in about three months! How exciting! I can go to CU and work and have nice clothes all at the same time!

Speaking of CU, today I got a letter saying my housing application was confirmed and in late May I should get another correspondence letting me know which dorm I'm staying in, the room number, my roommate's name (if applicable), my address, and other information about moving in and shit. So I'm excited about that.

I can't wait to go camping! Whenever I'm outside at night I look at the sky and it's beautiful, but I always just imagine how much better it would be if I was in the mountains. I cannot wait. I should probably get a tent so I don't have to rely on my camping companions for that. Also I think people might be getting sick of my camping zeal. I hope that doesn't stop them from going camping with me!

I really hope Ashley can come on the trip to Indiana, because it just wouldn't be the same without her.

I love my prom dress.

I love country music.

My concert is tomorrow!! I hope my voice doesn't suck. I wonder what I'll wear.

Q. What's the difference between roast beef and pea soup?
A. Anyone can roast beef.

Smile, Big Brother is Watching

Today was so good!! I woke up at 7:04 (usually leave my house at around 7:00) and left at 7:17. I was a bit late to Chinese.. But I don't think anyone noticed. I told Mrs. Gao I was going to CU and would keep coming to her to learn Chinese and she said I could marry her son (because I guess he goes to CU?) and I was like oh that's lovely. And she was like "I'd like you as a daughter-in-law" and I said "Awwww" but it was actually really flattering! I mean, there are several teachers I've had that I actually like a lot and have influenced me a lot and I really WOULD like them to be part of my family. It's just that the way social dynamics work, it would be really weird if I started inviting them over and stuff.. Darn. Maybe after I graduate and give them all my graduation gifts and all that we can have meaningful conversations about how much their teaching has meant to me. Oh my god, I just teared up thinking about it.
Whatapuss. I actually hate that word - pussy - it's so dirty and sounds gross and I don't like it. But oh well.

After school I went to work out, then came home and did virtually nothing. Eventually I did some physics and now I'm going to go to bed.

I want some new shoes. I found really cute heels at Famous Footwear for only $15!! Maybe I'll go back tomorrow and if they're still there I'll know it's a sign that they're meant for me. God, they were great.

Today I offered to do a favor for Ms. Lealman and the favor is turning out to be really big. I have to find out what all the seniors from Knight Crew are doing next year (gap year, college, etc, and what they're studying at college). But actually out of about sixty seniors, I only have 21 left to fill in. So I would say I've done a pretttty good job so far. Damn I'm good.

Going Commando is Freeing

Would taking a girlfriend to prom be weird? Would people think I'm lesbian? Because I'm considering it.

Today I had a pretty successful day. I brought a shit ton of work home, only to not do any. Physics was fun, I watched Ryan and Jordan freestyle and really wanted to but knew that my shitty rap would be 100x worse than theirs... Which, if I think about it, really isn't that bad or surprising, since I'm a white girl who never freestyles. I should've just tried. I think freestyling is so cool.
I went and gave a BYBA presentation over at Shining Mountain Middle with Gaelyn and Robin, which was cool. Then I went to my voice lesson, and then to my job interview. It went really well, I thought. The only thing is that I'm not 18 yet and the woman interviewing me wasn't sure whether or not she could hire me until I am.

I did basically nothing at home after all of that, but on the bright side I feel much more relaxed. I'm super tired. Good night all y'all.

What if You Could Fly Away?

Today after school Ashley and I were productive and did some math, then I went to BYBA, and interviewed with YOAB for a grant, then went home and was productive and did some work on Beloved and some work for Russian, watched Parenthood, and spent way too long deciding what to wear to my job interview tomorrow. Interviewing with White House Black Market!! I've wanted to work there for months. I hope my outfit isn't too casual - it's just a plain black long-sleeved shirt that's tight and not too low cut, a black pencil skirt with tan horizontal lines on it.. I figure I'll wear pantyhose and black flats and wear my hair half up? Agh, stressing about it won't help, but I really want to work there.

So I won this award for an outstanding youth volunteer and there's a breakfast for it next week.. I guess it's worth missing school for, but I've been missing a lot of school lately. But I actually don't really care about that, I just don't want my grade in math to drop any farther down. That's kind of shallow of me. But I do really like math, I just don't want to be in school anymore.

Poop. Good night and good luck.

Colorado - Hell, Yeah it Snows in April!

Today I was soo tired. But I found, once again, more evidence to support my life strategy. In the morning I was just super tired, but then I went to math, where I didn't really get anything and got really frustrated and started tearing up and it sucked a lot because I knew if I cried everyone would look and think 'oh my god look at that weird girl who's crying over math' so I couldn't just let it out and I had to sit there in frustration. This isn't the evidence, though. Right after that, it was lunchtime, and I wasn't feeling it and didn't really want to be with anyone because of math, but at one point I thought:
-Goddamnit! This sucks
-Why don't I just smile and be happy? (at which point I smiled and felt a little better but was enjoying wallowing too much so I stopped)
-I want to keep feeling bad, but feeling bad sucks. So I'm going to stop now. (at which point I smiled again, and felt a gazillion times better!)

So basically the point of this is that happiness (at least for me) is a choice. I felt like feeling bad, so I did, and when I was finished with that, I chose to be happy. And the rest of the day was great, though I was super exhausted for basically no reason.

After school, I went to work out and realized I forgot my workout clothes at home in a bag. So I raced home to get them, fell asleep for twenty minutes, got up and took my clothes to the gym. Which is where I realized I left my sneakers at home (they're normally in my car, so I assumed they were there still but instead made an ass out of u and me). So I worked out anyway in my flats, and Mel laughed at me but let me wear her 8 1/2 size sneakers for a while. My feet are size 6. So that was fun, haha, it's surprising how rarely I noticed my toes wiggling around in the extra inch and a half of space I had.. I'm so dumb sometimes.

I got home and after eating some snacks I read for a while and fell asleep at around 5:30, and all of a sudden I woke up and it was 8:30. Jesus. At least it was a good nap. I started some homework and applied for housing at CU (who knew that would be such a pain in the ass?). And here we are. So I was going to write the page about Beloved and milk and shit, but I think I'd rather go to bed and do that later. Lazy. Poop. Smile.

Double Recap All The Way

I guess I'll recap the past two days.

Friday was a pretty good day, I was glad when it was over. I went to ripple (NIPPLE) and didn't want froyo so while Tyler and Lindsay and Emily and Ian and co. were there I went to King Soopers and bought nail clippers and waterproof mascara. I've been needing those (nailclippers were lost somehow, and I need waterproof mascara for graduation). Then we hung out a bit outside nipple and then Ty drove us all back to fartview. :) Fairview.

I went to work out with my trainer Mel, she's so cool, and I worked out really hard. I'm still pretty sore in my butt and groin. I like working out, except the pain sucks, but I feel really happy while I'm doing it. And refreshed.
I went home to take a shower when Mark was like 'where u at' and I was like 'all up in hurr.' Well, that's not per se what was said but pretty close. So I went to Mark's for an hour to hang out with Ashley and Rick and Mark and watched part of Toy Story 3 when I had to leave to be with Talia. Talia and I had planned to party hardy but were too tired and didn't feel like searching the social jungle out for fun shit. So instead, we ate and bought candy and watched You Again. And went to sleep, some of us earlier than others (fall asleep during the movie).

In the morn' it was Saturday and I went to Russian, then to my performance class, then to White House Black Market (where I scored an interview WHADDAP) where I got my outfit for lobbying in DC. Then I went to pick up Ashley. Poor Ashley, she was in Denver and while she was parallel parking someone hit her, ripped her front bumper off, and drove away. Whaddadick. But she's being a trooper, keeping her chin up and shit. I have been cussing a lot lately, I should change that. Don't want nobody thinking I ain't classy or nothing.

Ashley and I went to the Flatirons Mall to get prom dresses, and got really pretty ones. I got mine from Macy's and Ashley's is from Fusion. Finding hers took a while because we went from store to store and a lot were nice dresses but not THE dress. That's an exaggeration, it's just that at Macy's there wasn't anything great for her, then at Dillard's there was an okay dress but they wouldn't let her put it on hold, but then at Fusion was the number one hit. Also my dress is really pretty.

Thennn Ashley and I came to hang out at my house and started watching She's The Man, which she's heard me talking about a lot before, so she finally got to see where a lot of my crazy spawns. After that, Mark and Zach picked us up and we went to karaoke. That was really fun, I sang Thank You by Dido and Ashley and I sang Wouldn't It Be Nice by The Beach Boys. It was really nice. Then Ashley and I started watching Bridget Jones' Diary and went to sleep. Partyin Partyin - YEAH - fun, fun, fun!